[Maxxie considers this for a moment. He's scared to stay, sure, but he's scared to go too. It's hard to choose which might be the lesser of two evils from where he's standing.]

But what if I go back and I can't make it again? I've had this now and it makes me happy. And I've had...

[He sighs, trying to stead his voice.]

What if you're not part of it? I don't even know how all of this works but you aren't there in any of my memories.